Pro-ana and pro-mia blogs are disgusting.

Yep. Disgusting.
"Ana and Mia love you!"

They wouldn't love me.

Wait, no, this is meant to be a positive blog.
Without references to bad thoughts.
Is it okay to write about my thought processes?
I don't even know.

But I'm Googling and reading pro-ana blogs and my cousin would kill me if she found out I was doing it again.

Thing is, I think all this stuff and never get around to anything. I want to be skinny, don't get me wrong, but reading these blogs hasn't really motivated me.
I guess that's a good thing, right?

I've never purged. Never done anything more than restricting.. and with self-control as bad as mine, you'd wonder if I even want what I'm aiming for.

I'm only 4kgs away, I think.
But I can't weigh myself because I don't know where the scales are.
I think Mum got rid of them.

I like this post about pro-ana. It shows things the right way round.
I probably need to keep thinking that way.
Except it's hard and I'm tired, and not in a fighting mood.

And I can't see the bones in my hand just yet.

puppies and beaches and Elmo,
- Olivia